Beyond Society and Ego

"So, the parent must step out of time and place and become the parent this child needs, not the parent that society (and the parent's ego) dictates. It requires an almost superhuman love, where the parent's expectations are set aside and the needs of the child are met first." -- Demitri Papolos, M.D., and Janice Papolos

Long Time No Blog

Big things around here have gotten much bigger, as big things tend to do. I am usually exhausted, often reeling, always trying to find footing. But like a glimpse of star filled infinity between the storm clouds, I'm not alone. I have good people holding my hand in so many different ways. I'm the only one that can walk through this and no one other person is living these same questions. But every time I turn around there is camaraderie. A friend sending me a link on sensory issues and understanding how scared I am. A picture posted that reminds me it does Get better. People just being real and praying out loud when I need to listen in. A friend that keeps on listening. My husband. My sister. Co survivors who are ready to fight too. I don't get the map I want so badly. There's not outline or plot to help me see what comes next. But I'm not alone. A flashlight here, a hug there. I'm going forward because I won't go back. It's good to know I'm not the only one out here.